Thoughts and Reflections

Ok...well what a few days it has been. I kinda spent the whole weekend feeling sorry for myself and a little hopeless again, I just couldnt get out of that horrible feeling all weekend, I just wanted to stay in bed. It came to me that no matter how much people pray tragic things still happen in this world and the reality came to me that this may not work out no matter how much faith we have and giving up totally everything to God means accepting that and I just cant accept that, just the mear thought of our Isabel not coming home takes my breath away. Then a dear friend explained to me, things I already know but just needed to hear again, that yes tragic things still do happen in this world and God doesnt tell us that they wont but He DOES promise that He will be there right beside us when those things do happen, He will be there to carry us when we feel we cant go on. Out of every tragidy God can bring new life and something postive out of it, someting beautiful but at the same time I want to be selfish and say, I dont want to be that example of strength, I just want our daughter home. So I still struggle with that but another friend told me this morning that giving this over to God is not a one time thing, you have to do it over and over no matter how many times, even if it is minute after minute becasue it is just too much for us to bear and He tells us to give our burdens to Him so that is what we have to continuely do, give it to Him as many times as we have too.

So that being said there are still some postive changes happening in Ethiopia, wow, specific prayers are being aswered especailly when it comes to changes within mowa. Continue to pray that the new mowa will have grace and understanding not only for our file but for everyones. Continue to pray for my medical report and that the words and the wisdom will just come from God himself. Also pray for a lady whom I have had phone contact with and shared emails, she is in the same position we are in, mowa is reviewing thier file this week, pray for a postive outcome.

So Lee and I are going on a date night tonight! We are going to see The Lincon Lawyer, a drama, looks good. It will be SO nice to get out and focus on something else and eachother.